Hey There

Because of the circumstances and people involved, I am not  sharing the details of my  story here. The people included in my story were close to my heart and  betrayals run deep. I took it as personal as I could have taken it. I didn't put the pieces that were happening behind the scenes together until it was too late so it came as a huge shock, I was devastated and I did not react well. I was angry that I had been deceived and manipulated..  

I will happily share with those who need to hear my story, those it could help.

 I have lead my life living from my heart space, caring for others, too deeply. There is a better way to live thru your heart without dismissing yourself.

  

I  decide now to listen to myself sooner, trust myself more and listen to "nudges" even though it "feels" like I'm judging.  It is in that way that you "discern" what's best for you and set bounderies. There is no bad or good in this process.

While I am not sharing details of people and events here, I would like to share 3 things I have come to through my processes... FYI, This is summed up by a person I have been connected to for many years, A Shaman who has mentored me over the years at very pivotal points in my life. Her name is Katie. Thank you Katie. (This to explain that energetically, people can connect from worlds apart)

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1. People won't see you as you are, they'll see you as they are.

Out there in the world, there are tons of people suffering. They suffer quietly, within the privacy of their minds and hearts. The light people see in you is a reflection of their light and the darkness they see in you is a reflection of their own darkness. People who would love to be empowered or strong or shining might feel all sorts of emotions and project them onto you. This is not their fault. this is just the way it is . By shining and being in service , you help them heal. If they wish to explore why you trigger them, they will find behind the trigger a powerful gift but if they don't , someone else will come along to trigger them until they understand their wound. It's not personal, it is never personal. 

 

2. Being of service is not optional, it is our responsibility.

There are far more people out there hurting than healing. You don't have to be an expert, you don't have to be any way close to perfect and you do not have to have it all figured out. A smile to a stranger, a hug to someone who needs it and words of wisdom can heal. 

Your Soul will guide you to the form of service you should commit to, it will feel like a longing for something. It can be as small as a smile and as big as becoming  a full-blown spiritual activist. It is about the message needing to come through you.

 I am grateful in this moment, as I type this, that my unique service to others was revealed to me in the past months  and I am so excited to get started, Ironically Ive been committed to it all my life, and didn't recognize it until now...

 

3. To understand means to heal. We lend the same understanding to ourselves as we do others. Sometimes, you can understand others too much, making it harder to recognize those boundaries that need setting, then it becomes about behavior.

When we understand where certain behaviors are coming from it is way easier to eradicate them and choose love instead. (CHOOSING LOVE DOES NOT MEAN AVOID THE NUDGES!) 

 During this healing process, I have found so much behind what I understand as "fear of shining". Here are a few examples of all that was brewing under the surface for me.

* Fear of being in danger

* Fear of being made fun of

* Fear of being rejected

* Fear of being abandoned 

* Fear of being judged

* Fear of being criticized

When we step into our power, when we shine our brightest and loudest in the name of love, we soon realize there's never been anything to fear. By connecting to our authentic truth in that magnitude we truly understand how supported and loved we truly are. The right people show up.

 The Universe is there, waiting eagerly for us to open the door and receive all the abundance, love and happiness waiting. 

"There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved". Love never fails my friends. You never have to look or beg for it... it is in your natural state of being.

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